Yesterday John was a bit out of sorts at times. Rhonda said she took them to Macdonalds, and John was hitting a girl in that play climbing area. That continues to be a problem with him, although I don't know if the girl did something. But from what I've seen at times, I don't think other kids have to do something to do John before he starts hitting.

When I got home, he was saying things like "make feel better", and I'd give him a hug, and he'd say "feel better", and he'd also mention going on an airplane, etc... so I wonder if my being gone last weekend really upset him, and he doesn't know how to express himself.

The last couple nights when putting him to bed, Rhonda says he's punishing me, cuz he'll want Mommy to hold him, and last night when he wanted to play Ring Around The Rosey, he said to me "go away", but then wanted me to hold his hand too. But otherwise, he's wanted me to play with him and be around him. We had fun jumping on the bed yesterday when I got home.

So, hard to tell what's going through his little mind. He's been abandoned before, so maybe my being away affected him in ways he's not really conscious of, it's so hard to tell.

I'll just contine to reassure him that I'm home, I don't have to go on an airplane again, etc... I don't think I'll do orchestra in the fall again, so we can all go to church together.

Hanna didn't want me to leave her at Sue's house again this morning. When Sue walked over to us, Hanna buried herself in my shoulder and hung on tight when Sue reached for her. Apparently Hanna really attached to Sarah, so hopefully they had fun together again today, and Hanna will get used to being there. I guess Sarah will be gone next week and expressed concern about Hanna!